Juggling was getting tougher, would just get to reset and have another $gr or two drop in unexpectedly for expenses, started last summer and began to expand monthly. End of year last year was toughest as saw so much expense for health related and most due as to beating self on the KW so hard to get it ready.
Then the kicker, wife explained she was just being receptive to the ideas in pacifying me expecting it to just go away where when completed told me had no intentions. Drop kicked in the nuts. Her expectations were to sell the farm around the house and stay here debt free, gave her the math as to that not ever working out made her mad, then she tried to do the math as well and figured she could not do it by herself, opened her eyes.
Neck will be nastiest expense believe or not, spoke to a insurer rep yesterday where been chewing on that, they will cover the injection coming up, will NOT cover another surgery as to a third implant, would cover for fusion but not implant. Then found the company is losing In Network providers most likely due to low payback values. Almost everything needing done is Out of Pocket or noted as ‘Elective’ meaning they just found excuse to not pay. With history would become less viable to change insurers as premiums would sky rocket. Back to rock and hard place.
Exploring options, truck may already be sold just not confirmed. Large tooling as mill, lathe, welders are next up as will begin to clear shop out along with farm equipment being moved to Nephew at Salem MO. Told him run it out as can and use it up. All written off against farm taxes. Last up farm, move wife into little place minimal maintenance, she stated all she wants is to sit and watch TV so will get what she wants, hope she understands where that is a dead end as not challenging her ideals or plans or where they take her further. Her Dad tried that, failed, sat down for a year and could not recover. All her current co workers stated same as to non functional but has become determined she can Make it work, so be it.
Last up, the other side of coin. Me
Likely be ridding myself of all my excess stuff over next couple years, get down to a pickup truck and the small trailer with the Harley, vagabond awhile, get on bike while can and run, make best of time as have left. Visit extended family across the States as had planned just alone, resettle as a permanent setting to near my younger brother and his kids for the final chapter outside of Cape Girardeau MO.
Been fighting with this for awhile, time to throw in the towel, admit defeat.