You’ll probably go through the same thing with the grader once you’re better.You and the grader aren’t so different at the moment.Eventually,that old grader will start to slowly look better everyday you put the time into it.
Time is where things are at for both of you at the moment.
One day,you’ll be sat on your nice,shiney fixed up grader feeling so much better,and you’ll look back on this time and think how far you’ve progressed since you wrote this thread.