The biggest pain loosing someone you love is not the initial loss, it's the 10 years down the road not having them in your life.
Lost my mom to cancer 2 years ago April this year. This weekend is a tough one.
CM...
I feel your pain and I really am sorry for your loss. For everyones loss.
When I lost my mom 9 years ago, it absolutely wrecked me. The guilt from not making time for her when I could have....should have. And the money. Yeah, money had a lot to do with it. You see, she had asked me to be the executor of her estate. Knowing what I know now, there's no way in hell i'll ever agree to do anything like that again. This huge family that I had, all of them in Ecuador...what a bunch of greedy vultures. They were after the money. And as my moms executor, I followed to the letter what she had written in her will. This so called family, many who I didn't know or remember, they all live pretty fat in Ecuador. 4 of them, an uncle, two aunts and a niece actually flew back to the states with me. Why? To collect their checks. Yep, I paid each one of them off BEFORE my mom was placed next to dad at the cemetery. The family that mom so desperately tried to have me reconnect with, down the crapper because of the money. I suppose money can be a good thing and a bad thing. Losing my mom hurt. It hurts every day and I doubt that will ever change. But the money thing, that just made me an angry, bitter and hateful man towards this family of vultures I had. And I mean had. I hope they choked on huge checks I handed them.
Wow.... I apologize for ranting off like this. But your mom and my mom being gone is so damned painful.
Again, sorry for your loss CM.
btw, my moms birthday is in 5 days.
happy birthday mom.
now i need a drink.